I think I can finally accept that this is just the beginning of the end, it is hard for me. He really is someone that I want to live with for a long time. When the time comes I hope I am strong enough to go through like I have done before. There is this thing about love that is so painful. It is unbearable. But for now, I am trying my best to be a good partner for him. Deep down, I want to find any excuses to not to, hope he is trying too. So we don't have to do this. Separate. I think he can show more his love to me, I don't think I would asking him about that again. Am I asking too much ? All I want is, he shows me his love that I could see and feel. He being empathic in our relationship. I do not want him to provide me anything. I want him to support me emotionally and mentally. I would always be happier if I could listen to his words that make me feel loved. I wish he would tell me how he want to be loved. I have asked. He said he doesn't want to make it burden to me. I love him how can it is become a burden to me. Wholeheartedly, I would love to do anything. He has no idea how much love I could offer. I would love to love him as how he wants. Because it makes me feel happier. I make my man happy and I feel he deserves that. He should feel happy. Always be. But am I really don't know him that well ? Should I get to know him more ? It is almost a year now. I wish to gather my strengths to face this. I will continue talking here...